The Truth.

I felt the most amazing feeling of Love, the most powerful expression of it imaginable, a feeling that eliminated every other feeling and expression of my being, the purest, most powerful, most sublime feeling of love that my mind had the capacity of experiencing, not the love we feel for our romantic partners – the valentines version, not the love we feel for our children – the one that always causes us to forgive, not the feeling we feel for our family, friends and other ‘loved ones’ – the one that always wants the best for them, but the pure form, the ultimate version, the Love from where all these other forms of love come from, the complete version that all the other ones are a dilution of, the essence of Love, the absolute, unadulterated pure form of Love. A Love that cannot be described, conveyed, explained or understood, the feeling of All what Love can be.
I knew immediately what it was.

Imagine a small computer chip accidentally plugging into the power supply of the universe, imagine the electrical jolt it would receive, well I accidentally plugged into the power supply that powers everything, the jolt I felt crossed the barrier between life and inexistence, and taught me the difference between knowledge and true knowledge. The jolt I felt was pure Love.
I knew immediately that I was in the presence of what we call God.
It was the thing I had not believed in all my life, the thing I had believed could not exist in a logical existence, the thing I had convinced myself was a made up thing invented for the purpose of control.
And now I could feel it, I could feel the full power of it, a power I couldn’t handle.
But once I felt it, I knew immediately what it was. And then I knew.
I cannot and never will be able to describe the feeling I felt, it is truly beyond any words a human has the ability to use or ever will be able to use. It was of such a power, of such a magnitude, that it in no way can be conveyed, not even a fraction of it, it was the true definition of purity and absoluteness, everything is impure in comparison to this, and I knew what this purity meant, I knew what it was. I knew it was The Truth.
It was the feeling of all feelings, no feeling could give more, no person could feel more. It was everything.
It was every feeling, every emotion, every thought, every experience that I, or anyone has ever had, it was them all, all together as one, it was everything as one, it was All there is. All. A thing which cannot be defined.
It stripped away everything that my existence had been, and showed me what I really was. It was a split second, but in that split second I was free, free of everything that existence is, free of all the matter, free of all the ‘real world’, no boundaries anymore, no rules anymore, just the sublime, divine absolute Truth.
In that instant, I was gone. For a split second, I was no longer part of the world, I was in reality, no longer being or living or existing, but something else, I was returned, I was a part of this force, I could feel it as if I was it, as if it was everything I am, a fantastically immeasurable tiny part of this perfection of purity and Love. I cannot convey in words, I just cannot come close, to how this changed the way I felt about knowing, of what knowledge is, this showed me a different type of knowing, a knowing that cannot be disputed, a knowing that doesn’t have all the answers, but one that IS all the answers, a knowing that was ultimate and absolute. I cannot convey the feeling that I now knew. I knew the truth, I knew it like I’ve never known anything, I knew this was the Truth, the only Truth. I knew this was God.

I am trying but obviously failing to explain the difference in how this made me feel, from feeling anything else I’ve ever felt in comparison to this, this made me see that I am not a human being, it showed me that I’m not a person of flesh and bone living in a world full of matter, I am not just me, or me, or anybody I’ve ever thought I am. This showed me what I am, what we all are, what everything is, what the totality of existence is, what is All.
It was an experience that was not of this world we live in, not of life and movement, of experience and thought, of theories and ideas, of possibilities, it was something else, something that cannot be explained by anyone who has lived and thought and been, it is so far beyond matter, or dimensions of existence, or being, or thought or feeling. It is beyond life.
It was something which cannot be described, it can only be felt, experienced, witnessed. It was everything there is. It was All, and I knew it.
To feel this thing, to feel its power, to behold its power, was far too much for my senses, I could only take a split second of it before I burst into uncontrollable sobbing, shedding beautiful flowing tears. As soon as I realised what it was, as soon as that divine connection and acknowledgment was reawakened in my mind, my connection to it was gone, and I was me again, though changed forever. I have always felt that to feel any more of it, to experience it for a second or two even, I would not have been here or at any time, trying in vain to describe the indescribable, I would have gone, I would’ve had to. I would have had to forego any right to exist in this form and in this realm that we call reality. I would have had to have returned to my natural form, the energy I ultimately am, this force of Love that we are, the force that is All.
Imagine the feeling, just imagine as much as you can, the experience I had, you cannot, you never will be able to, your imaginations will always be an infinitesimal distance away from the truth of it no matter how much you try, that is unless you experience what I experienced, but bring to mind the greatest feeling of love you have ever felt, the feeling you cherish most in the depths of your heart, really feel it again, that feeling you know you could never forget, feel how it made you feel, then imagine multiplying that original, amazing feeling you felt by the greatest amount that your mind is capable of, the absolute limit, then imagine multiplying that by an amount you cannot comprehend, something far greater than you could ever dream of, something that is far beyond anything you can possibly imagine, then attempt to multiply that by something that is impossible to imagine, something that exists far, far beyond the reaches of thought and experience. You are not even coming close. You are still an eternity away. This is unimaginable brilliance, beauty and purity.
There is no way you can imagine anything that this thing is. By multiplying every experience and feeling of love that has ever occurred on this planet, all the experiences that all things have experienced in relation to love, and you will come to something which is nowhere near the magnitude of this thing I experienced.
It would make the gap in size between an atom and our universe seem miniscule and inconsequential, a nothing.
What I experienced is Love, pure Love, pure and indefinable Love, the reality of what this mysterious thing felt by us all as Love really is. The Truth behind what Love is.
The Truth that Love is All. And All is everything there is, no exceptions, not one.
And I felt it, I felt it in every atom of my being, in my mind, my heart, my soul, any words that can be used to describe what I am. And when I felt it, I just knew.
It made me cry such joy filled tears, because it showed me my life, it showed me how every instance of my life could have been if I had known the Truth, embraced it and lived it. It showed me the difference between life, what we consider love is, and pure Love, the origin of love, and that caused me to feel such shame as I cannot accurately describe. I saw everything, every one of my actions and how immensely different it was from pure Love, I felt every feeling I’d ever had, and I felt them all at once and in comparison to the feeling that Love was now showing me, and I was shamed. I was shamed for every second I’d been on this planet, and for everything I’ve ever done. Like a 1W light bulb standing next to the sun, and looking straight at it.
I was shamed for me, my life and for all of human existence, that’s what this powerful feeling did to me. But though I felt the shame, and felt it deep in my soul, as deep as anything had ever affected me, me and my feelings were nothing, nothing, not even a speck of dust on the face of a sub-atomic particle compared to the feeling I had felt upon feeling the true feeling of Love, the feeling that is everything, it showed me everything, though only everything I could comprehend, which will never be anything compared to the true All that this thing is. You have no idea what All is, and you never will, unless you feel it like I did.
Humans will never develop to the point where we can understand what this is that I’m trying to make you understand, we will never have the words to describe it, it is of a realm from which we have no knowledge and never will. Our words do not have within them the capacity to even come close to describing this thing, it is too vast, too complex, too multi-faceted, too pure.
We think the known universe is big, in truth, we have no idea what big really is. The universe is merely a wisp floating on the surface of the Truth, a tiny image created for the purpose of being viewed, something insignificant that merely provides a platform for the expression of what is significant. It can be dissolved by the Truth, with as much ease as, with as little effort as would take me or you to think of what to do next. It is an expression of this higher force and nothing else.
The Truth is bigger, more immense, more mind blowing, than the concept of infinity. Infinity is a description of something, the Truth is something that is beyond description, definition or explanation, it is beyond all that humanity is, and beyond all of what we know or don’t know of existence, experience and expression. It is the answer to every question.
Everything we know of, all of existence, is merely laid upon the Truth.
The Truth is All there is, it is everything, no exceptions.
The Truth is Love, We are Love, and Love is All

This experience showed me the Truth, and ever since that day, the Truth has been shining through life more and more, I can see it everywhere I look, in everything I look at, in every situation, in everything that is. That’s because everything that is, is made from the same one thing, there is not one thing which is not part of it, it is all made from the only one thing that is, and that is Love, and Love is All, and All is Love, and so much more.
All is not just Love, how can it be, it is All, everything that is, all the matter, all the mind, all the experience, all the theory, all the unknown, everything, All what we will ever know, and all the things we will never know. Absolute. All
We will never know what All is, we weren’t built to, but we can feel it, and when we feel it, we feel Love, we feel that beautiful, strange feeling that Love gives us, and when we feel that feeling, when we feel what true, pure Love is, we will be feeling all we need to know about All. Love is all We need to know about All.
And it’s the only truth we all need to know.
Everything you’ve ever read or heard about this force is wrong, because everything you’ve ever heard or read about this force, has been the result of a human interpretation of it. A vision of what a human thinks it is.
Everything that has been written about this force has been the futile attempts of a simple human being to understand and explain something which cannot be described or explained by simple human beings.
This is not God, or Allah, or Yahweh. This is not the Gods of Egypt or Greece.
This is something which would make all those flawed human concepts bow down and weep. The world that has invented these concepts and given them their names and ascribed to them their limits and their powers, is merely an image projected by this thing. The world, in reality, is no more real to the Truth, than a computer game. All of reality is in essence, a vast organic computer game playing out its levels in an undecipherable, multi dimensional hologram. It is a nothing compared to the Truth.
The Truth is something which encapsulates all of those things, and everything else, and is so much more. This is everything that is. This is what All is.
Everything that you’ve previously been told about this thing, has been an attempt in some way to place it somewhere, to give it its place, to give it a meaning.
You cannot give a place to something which is everything.
You cannot explain the unexplainable.
There are no rules for everything.
Everything just is.

My Name Is Martin

(Part 3)